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What's broken can never be mended. So says my back, elbow, knee, toe and much much more.

LOVES
& Her
& ULTIMATE

HATES
& Two-timers.

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& New back
& New knee
& new toe
& new elbow
& You.
& Mercurial.
& Ultimate Coaching licence.

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Anna
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Jie Jie
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Vin0
Mr teh
Sabby
Jiaxin
Sei Shaun
Trite
DQ
Alyssa
bl0gger
Eddie
Wanee
Patrick Star
Sh0ba
Me Other.
ZD.
MIU.
SGU.
loisa.
Angel.


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Friday, October 31, 2008

ahh damn. why i so kpo? i should just live in my little apathetic world and be content with the facade that is around me. At least it's looking through a rosy tinted glass. So what are we? what am i? fine nevermind, on your behalf, happy birthday to me. It's over. My birthday, that is. LOL.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

"Oh, It Is Love"

Oh, it is love
From the first time I set my eyes up on yours
Thinking oh, is it love?

Oh dear
It's been hardly a moment
And you are already missed
There is still a bit of your skin
That I've yet to have kissed
Oh say please do not go
But you know, oh, you know that I must
Oh say I love you so
But you know, oh, you know you can trust
We'll be holding hands once again
All our broken plans I will mend
I will hold you tight so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my hand into yours
Thinking oh is it love?

Oh, dear, it's been hardly three days
And I'm longing to feel your embrace.
There are several days
Until I can see your sweet face.
Oh say, wouldn't you like to be older and married with me
Oh say, wouldn't it be nice to know right now that we'll be
Someday holding hands in the end
All our broken plans will have been
I will kiss you soft so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?

Your heart may long for love that is more near
So when I'm gone these words will be here
To ease every fear
And dry up every tear
And make it very clear
I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?

Oh it is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?

I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips onto yours
Thinking oh is it love?

Today is my birthday so many things i thought of and so many i have forgotten as well so i shall just vomit it all out.

This year has got to be the year almost everyone forgot my birthday but i understand.

I OFFICIALLY POSTPONE MY BIRTHDAY TO ANY DAY AFTER THE 26TH OF NOVEMBER TO THE 11TH OF APRIL. HEH. So you wouldn't feel so guilty and i would have the longest and best birthday present. spending time with you.

THANK YOU SO MUCH TO MY KAKAK AND NENEK FOR THAT WONDERFUL PRESENT OF YOURS!!!!

Thank you so much,
For a present as such,
Our friendship is a puzzle,
Not one that can crumble.
Because it is magical,
And trancends the logical.

Not too chim i hope...

Now now thanks to everyone who wished me as well.

Now let me look back to my past few birthdays...

Since i was born to now, pandan cake, kaya then $2 swiss rolls.

Sec 1, seoul garden. sec two onwards, cant remember.

MI year one, cant remember. My present came in march. Orange adidas frisbee <3<3<3.

MI year two, OP ON THAT DAY. Went KFC. present came in febuary.

MI year three. Oh well. haha.

Now this is the song everyone else's blog has, but i cant find.

"The Man Who Can't Be Moved"

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying, "If you see this girl can you tell her where I am?"

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

'cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "Son you can't stay here"
I said, "There's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

'cause If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
'cause you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved

[Chorus 2x]

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Right.

Right. Im still not trying to feel like the third party.

On one hand you telling me this. i believe you.

But on the other hand i see contradicting stuff. So yeah.

Passerbys, I'm sticky. so what? im possessive. so what? Share your wife or husband lah. See how you like it.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

SHES SO HIGH

She's blood, flesh and bone
No tucks or silly cone
She's touch, smell, sight, taste and sound

But somehow I can't believe
That anything should happen
I know where I belong
And nothing's gonna happen

Yeah, hey

'Cause she's so high
High above me, she's so lovely
She's so high, like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite
She's so high, high above me

Dadadadada

First class a fancy free
She's high society
She's got the best of everything

What could a guy like me ever really offer?
She's perfect as she can be, why should I even bother?

(Chorus)

She calls to speak to me
I freeze immediately
'Cause what she says sounds so unreal

'Cause somehow I can't believe
That anything should happen
I know where I belong
And nothing's gonna happen

(Chorus)

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

A SCAMMABLE FACE

why does everyone want to scam me nowadays?

first there was this person who impersonated a pre u1 girl who was interested in me, and without a doubt i guessed it was two Js' who were in cahoots.

And like i dunno who the passerbys are...

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Monday, October 27, 2008

26/10/08. My love and i are finally united. Thought i know now nothing lasts forever lets just have each other as much as we can while you last.

I love music. Music is love. I love the way she cups my ears from the rest of the world and sings to my heart.

Met Angel, Jet. JX and loisa for what thought was a regular 06s14 outing. Everyone was suppose to come at 9, then 10. but only Jx arrived on time. the rest of us arrived close to 11.

Went to Yum cha at chinatown for a load of dim sum. Shortly after Jx and Jet kidnapped me to the toilet and when i came out there was a Oreo Cheese cake awaiting me haha. the staff there were very cheena and very grouchy. Grrr. Haha as i was enjoying my cake, which was too much for 3 guys. Noticing there was a long line waiting for us to clear the table, i conviniently turn around and bellowed " sorry it's my birthday!"

The girls sort of ran off so they need not share the bill, and we boys just ordered more dim sums without them. We met YX at vivo where we watched Max Payne, which was a real pain. After the movie we walked around, and departed. Luckily i had my love to accompany me home.

thank you guys.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

love songs for losers
www.songsfulloftrite.blogspot.com
written for failures
On sour grapes night.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

pissed to the max

My phone is faulty. once again. The blardy Alarm doesnt work anymore, and the ringtones or message tones or what not only work as and when they want to. Another possessed electronic equipment from my wonderful house.

The weather is so bloody cold this morning that it took me 45mins just to cook one stupid pot of maggi mee. I had to turn on the stove cooker to like, what 75percent of maximum flame? and in the end the handles got heated up and being a kuku head i didnt know and grabbed the handles. Singe singe singe.

Im going night study with Shukri, Huddin and maybe Ben later, as i have been doing for this week. HAHA Hockey guys are cool to the max lah we have so much in common and so much to talk about. Maybe i should have continued hockey in sec school and came to MI and play hockey too. Less politics and i get less injured in a more dangerous sports and no females.

But Shukri is the best man i found out so much more from him. Sad cases, both of us are. Funny why the not so good looking people are actually the nicer ones. Lol. I'm neither good looking or nice. soooooooooo yeah.

i thought of all people you would be the one who knew me better. trusted me more.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Felo-de-se.

when one has no more competence
when questioning one's existence
Then gone shall be his shell,
no place befitting but hell

Burn his body
Burn his corpse
Even his ashes
Aren't worth rodent drops

Pairs surround him
A pair he'll never be
There's someone for everyone
He's just the odd one you see

Monotonous
Commonplace
Not just his voice
But also his face

Love is beautiful
Love is pure
Love cannot taint
Love can cure.

Lust is a menace
Wears the mask of love
Lust manifests all
And is frown upon by above.

A heart devoid of both
A heart sits in his chest
A heart that is empty:
Apathy at its best.

No love, no hate
Just hate for himself
The world keeps changing
He's the last can on the shelf.

Youth is a diamond
Youth is forever
Youth is in your hearts
Youth is neverending endeavour.

Even at 19
The body is old
For a heart empty
turns the whole body cold.

A mind that's lost
in the abyss of doubt,
is like a drowning dog,
Struggling about.

An irrational mind,
That care should advocate
Should come quick
before the dog suffocates.


when the brain cant think
All efforts physical or mental go to naught
When the heart is stagnant and cold
when you do not know what's going on anymore
When there is a fear you can't identify
and chokes your lungs with uncertainty
When you need a hug the most
When i call your name
and you are no longer there
then i should no longer be here
On this earth.
when food is meaningless
when lust cant get hold of me
When love evades my desperare hands
When fate laughs before my eyes
pushing the world from me
But upon a reflection
i am my own cruel fate.
When clothes feel heavy
and appearance is a drag
When title and appointments
are nothing but sandbags on my weary body and soul
I strip myself of all and jump.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

you.

Get out of my face.

I don't need your sarcasm
I don't need your pride.
I don't need your threats.
I don't need your facade.
I don't need your attitude.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

On another note,

I AM AN OFFICIAL MEMBER OF ZERO DISCPLACEMENT WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Next up, under armour.
Contact lenses
And oh yeah. A new spine.

Disc in (:

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

I wonder.

You told me you weren't coming.
But then you came.
And oh my god were you beautiful.

I swear time just froze and i couldn't take my eyes off you.
I was speechless.
I nearly cried at the marvel of your beauty.
My heart my stomach and my mind just froze.
How can anyone look so good?
Oh yeah. Only you.

Now i wonder why didn't i take a picture with you.
OH yeah. You didn't recognise me when i walked pass you i guess.
Oh. Were you waiting for me to say hi, like the millions of times i did before?
Well i guess someone like you really deserves better, the best and so much more.
No one else caught my eye like you did.
Like you did before.
Like you always do.
Why do i take nonsense shots all the time?
That's because i can't smile naturally anymore.
Not since i lost you.
Now you and maybe others would probably be going who is this emo wanktard who can't move on?
I've never hated you. Even if you have i still feel the same.
Some may think im over possessive. Im sick in the head. Im freaky.

Im a loser. Im lame. but at least i have a spine. well not literally. That one is already broken.
Sure who wouldn't have doubts about going into a relationship with me let alone going back with me?
It all seems like you're just pushing me away but a while ago you wanted me back. So what's this? I don't understand. But i do know that you just want to clarify your doubts. So here i am and i can only do so much.
Like you said. It's not up to me alone.

Whatever it is that makes you happy, sweetheart.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Sweet heart i love you still,
And i always will.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Monday, October 06, 2008

argh

ARGH I NEED A NEW FUNCTIONING PC OR LAPPIE

I just want to hold you in my arms once again.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Third Rate P_layer.

I wonder if it's a pleasing or pestering to know that i miss you still.

Maybe somethings are best left unkown. MAYBE.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.